The Thinking Other Woman

Hi.

I guess you read my last message and for some reason decided to stay away.

I don't know why. Maybe things are much better at home now, and you were only stopping by to check on me, hoping you didn't ruin my life and that I would just go on and find a way to become happy, as you are. Maybe things

For the longest time, a married guy I had a four-month emotional affair with kept lurking around my website. 

Even when he started hiding behind a VPN, I figured out it was him, because he would go directly to a post or two I had made specifically to him when I was still trying to figure out if it was him or not, and he would read them over and over. ...

Oh, well.

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I'm a mess without you.

I love you. I miss you. Please don't let it end this way.

How much do we need to surrender and how often do we need to take initiative in our lives?

When to surrender? When you have no control. When you have control, take initiative.


I'm the one with no control, here, so I'm surrendering. 

... And man, am I glad I did.

My four-month emotional affair with a married man ended six years ago last May.

I wish I could tell you that I went triumphantly on, that I met the love of my life, that I’m happily married now, that life morphed into something wonderful.

No. ...

Hi. I know I write about studying the occult in respect to affairs a lot and most people believe it's crap.

However, mulling over what a reading says has, on occasion, CHANGED MY LIFE.

I realize now that both of us are working on developing and mastering FEELINGS OF WORTH.

I have to master feeling w...

Here I am staring at what has and hasn't transpired and going: What the hell?

There's no doubt, looking at their transits, that the ultimate fate of that marriage will be decided about two years from now. Stand or fall, stay together or leave, happily or unhappily. In the meantime, the person who so ...

So it's come to my attention that on April 13, a person on a mobile phone came STRAIGHT here, went to The Resources You Are Looking For, then went to my other post where it looked as if the person in question had visited, (Will My XXXX Area Visitor Please Stand Up?), then back to the Resources post, and left ... after being here something like three hours.

Now, who would do that?

I have a pretty good idea, and I realize the difference in ...

People often wonder how I could split from my family.

My brother has bawled me out over this more than once.

I get it, I totally get it. From their point of view, you only make a mentally ill mother worse by running out on her. And I can see that — I can.

Old messages are still below. Since I saw you were back here after I had given up all hope on you, I elected to add the following, written by Lisa A. Romano (The name might sound familiar. I've mentioned her below.):

Namaste Dear One!